Wednesday, September 14, 2005
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finally gt 1 private blog of my own... guess too much ppl found out abt mi e oter blog liao... dun dare to express miself thr... choose to write in mi diary for realli secret stuff...
al told mi tt she heard sum ppl sae tt i lyk dan is v v obvious... will ke yi wait for hi n stuff lyk tt... well, at 1st i tink tt tt is mi prob, y bother wad other ppl was thinkin abt... budden sumhw e more i tink of it the more i get disturbed abt it... m i realli tt obvious? budden it's v rare tt e person u lyk lyks u too u noe... so can sae i carn control it? wana be wib him every moment, but i do not haf e courage to do so...
sigh... sumtyms i c u isolatin yrself? y izzit so? u haf indeed changed a lot... u've matured & became more withdrawn at times... wanted to know wad u r tinkin... want to share all yr troubles... too bad i do nt haf tt courage to do so... n since u wun take e 1st action too, i duno wad to do... sigh...
so frm nw on muz jian tao yi dian le... sigh... but it's hard to contain mi feelings.... duno wad to do leh... nw i oso dun care to sae tinks abt him out loud to al alr... feelin scared bah... so i can onli pour out mi feelings in e blog n mi diary... gt secret stuff will still write in mi diary...
feeling depressed nw... duno y... wana scribble leh... den tink n tink n tink... lyk laz tym lyk tt... scared moz ppl alr mi... coz tt's nt mi usual self...
fo0d f0r th0ugHtS~
do u noe wad im gg thru? realli wan sum1 to share it wib... tt's u*...
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